Desiring Time Travel

Just to tomorrow night. I just want to fast forward to tomorrow night. Then it will be the night before I have my baby instead of the night before the night before I have my baby.

But I can’t complain or be impatient or anything of the sort because I only have one more day as a pregnant lady. I have only one more day until I meet my son. One more day. Tuesday my baby boy will be here!

Goodness gracious what am I going to do tomorrow?!?! I’m going to be pacing around like a crazed woman with anticipation!! Even though I can barely walk (truly, it’s horrifying) I might just have to stay out of the house all day tomorrow with Ember to distract myself.

Maybe I’ll take her to a movie at the dollar theater. Or maybe a visit to the library? Or maybe just a Costco trip?
Or maybe I actually feel like passing out with exhaustion at just the idea of those things and I’ll lay around on the couch and watch Nickjr all day with her? haha  photo 039eresized_zpsb7cbb59e.jpg

I had the very best time watching the BYU game with Allan this weekend! Such a good game!! It was the most perfect timing ever, too, because that day was particularly bad physically. Everything on my entire body hurt for some reason.
An exciting football game was just what I needed!  photo 053eresized_zpsdc23eaef.jpg

The girls have been writing and drawing a million notes and stories.  photo 065eresized_zpsc3f53aff.jpg

Another thing my kids are always doing is making giant messes.  photo 083eresized_zps1a6b570e.jpg

I’m still absolutely head over heels in love with project life. Love love love love love love. Love.
Ember joins me at the kitchen counter with paints while I catch up before baby brother comes.  photo 003eresized_zps5963e1d0.jpg

She’d brought those wings to Allan while he watched another football game and he tied them on for her. She wore them all evening.  photo 012eresized_zpsc4e38bc5.jpg

4 Days to Go

I had my very last prenatal checkup yesterday. I’m looking forward to not having weekly appointments! They weren’t bad or anything but I hate the long drive to get to the office!

I’m a complete wreck this week. I cry all the time, most of the time I don’t even have a reason. I’m just so glad this is all over in four days. I can’t hardly believe it. Though I feel like I’ve been pregnant my entire life and can’t remember what it feels like to be normal, I also can’t believe how fast this pregnancy went by. And I can’t believe I’m actually meeting my son in just four days!! There’s this whole other person who I don’t even know yet and in a few days he’ll be here and I’ll not be able to remember life without him or what it was like to not know him! So crazy. So exciting!!  photo 005eresized_zps6e21bfcf.jpg

I went to a restaurant I’ve never been to before with Ember yesterday. I ordered a half a classic grilled cheese sandwich but I’m pretty sure they gave us the kid version (maybe they saw Ember with me and assumed I meant the child’s grilled cheese) because they added a free cookie to the sandwich plate (that only comes with the kids’ meal) and the sandwich tasted like crap! It was made with that nasty sliced cheese, I think. You know the kind in individually wrapped slices that tastes like it’s not cheese at all. The kind my kids love and I want to barf when eating? haha, that stuff!
So Ember doesn’t like that kind of cheese, either, so… that was a huge waste of money!
The broccoli cheese soup was divine, though!  photo 007e2resized_zps87bc2f78.jpg

Anywho, I got Ember to have a few bites of the sandwich by bribing her with that cookie! She actually preferred sharing my broccoli soup with me! She loves broccoli!  photo 013eresized_zps3c35c545.jpg

Then she climbed into my lap and played with my hair for quite a while. She was putting it on my face like a mustache and cracking herself up.
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I Don’t Have Anything Creative or Special to Share this Week

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I feel really ready for labor. Delivery. Non pregnancy. And baby.
And I really can’t think or talk about much else. Waiting these last few days has become a huge patience test!  photo 043eresized_zpscbeed2c5.jpg

It’s hard to walk now. I have shooting nerve pain through my legs and back when I go shopping. I feel so heavy. Which I am, but mostly this baby boy is riding right on my cervix and the pressure is extreme.
I’m glad because I’m hoping that means, like his siblings’, his labor will be short!  photo 068eresized_zps2e88ec65.jpg

I can no longer take all four kids out. It is way beyond my capabilities to handle them and being pregnant while on an errand! We’re home bound from here on out!  photo 084eresized_zps295fc2e9.jpg photo 085eresized_zps18bf0e65.jpg photo 096bwresized_zpsec2ce080.jpg photo 111eresized_zpsab61cc1a.jpg photo 114eresized_zps9a948fa5.jpg

Everything lately for me is about simplifying. I don’t want any extra work of any sort. If the kids ask to do a craft or have a friend over or go somewhere or pretty much anything I have to stop myself from thinking they’re crazy for even asking. They don’t get (at all) that this week before delivery is like the rest of pregnancy pain x 1,000.
Even something as simple as trying to walk to the car after a particularly annoying shopping trip, and having them stop and climb up on these ball things in front of Target, when I told them not to, because I just wanted to get to the car and sit, was frustrating.
I have to just bite my tongue a million times a day and try to remember I’m the broken one right now.  photo 146eresized_zps2fde6723.jpg photo 133eresized_zps5b68589d.jpg photo 125eresized_zps4cb9506b.jpg photo 137eresized_zpsf279e6a7.jpg photo 127eresized_zps51f9b224.jpg

I got a magnetic nativity scene from a craft store. I’ve already pulled out a few Christmas toys for the kids to play with. I wouldn’t mind completely skipping Thanksgiving and just plunging into Christmas. I’d like that a lot, actually.  photo 161eresized_zps8dbe4c69.jpg photo 154eresized_zps9878cb12.jpg photo 174eresized_zps3f71bac2.jpg

Since Halloween the kids have had two pieces of candy in their lunches every day.  photo 017eresized_zps5dd5e3eb.jpg

Because of holiday season Brooklyn is back to her extreme picky eater ways. She’s always a picky eater but any time she gets any kind of a treat she’s beyond picky. Way, way beyond. It’s super annoying to have to deal with a 10 year old picky eater.  photo 018eresized_zps649d9f56.jpg

Ember is my other picky eater and that’s annoying, too. But luckily she’s been less picky this week!  photo 024eresized_zps507526ed.jpg

I got the kids little goody bags from Everett. Hopefully having some special things and activities will help the transition a little bit.  photo 038eresized_zps1bfb5ef3.jpg

Sometimes Ember really loves bananas and sometimes she hates them. She’s like that with most foods. One day something will be her favorite and she’ll want like 5 servings of it and then the next week she’ll act like you’re offering her the grossest thing she’s ever seen. lol  photo 044eresized_zpsd76cd469.jpg  photo 047eresized_zps8be2f889.jpg

Doctor, Doctor

Another week, another appointment. The craziest part is I only have one more appointment before Everett will be born!!

This week my contractions have picked up. They’re more often and they’re stronger. I’m contracting all the live long day. I usually do the last few weeks. I’ll be a good 4cm dilated and probably 90% (if not 100) effaced before I ever go into labor.

Oh yeah, according to my ultrasound yesterday- Everett will probably be around 8 pounds when he’s born. Maybe a few ounces less. We’ll see in 12 days!  photo 151eresized_zps41809238.jpg photo 159e2resized_zps27992edc.jpg photo 165eresized_zpsdd46751e.jpg photo 166e2resized_zps128d0947.jpg

The Tedious Phase

The last couple weeks before baby. It feels like time suddenly stops. Except there are a million things going on but all of them seem so lame now. Like, I don’t want to be making school lunches this morning, I want to be having a baby! Or, I don’t want to help with homework, I want to hold my baby!

I’m ready for baby to come now! I have literally every single last thing I need and it’s all organized and ready to go. I even went and bought menstrual pads and tucks pads on Tuesday. Super fun! haha  photo 003eresized_zps029ec60a.jpg

Yesterday at the doctor’s office (for just an ultrasound) if Ember wasn’t begging me to blow gum bubbles for her to pop she was climbing on the chairs. I had to tell her to climb down about a dozen times.  photo 014eresized_zpsa475bc01.jpg

Ember and I went to Cafe Rio for lunch.  photo 019eresized_zpscf5c5814.jpg

We got home and had about an hour of time bumming around the house before we had to go get the kids from the bus stop. Ember brought a chair from the living room into my bathroom and asked me if she could wear lipgloss.  photo 072eresized_zps75369c81.jpg

I put Everett’s carseat in the car before heading to the bus stop. Ember was super excited about it. I told her not to put her feet in there anymore and she hasn’t since. Crossing my fingers that she’s a good car “buddy” for Everett once he’s born! I think she’s going to be really happy to be able to see him while we drive places!  photo 143eresized_zps93898184.jpg
And now I’m off to the doctor!

Hieroglyphic Trail Hike

It’s November and the weather has finally made it to where it drops below 80 degrees in the evenings.
Which for our family means one thing…
Hiking season!!

I wasn’t too sure how my uterus would take this hike but it turned out to be easy peasy. I wasn’t crampy at all (until the drive home when I had a few strong contractions) but since I’m still fighting off a wretched cold I felt really horrible. Not like, I wanted to stop hiking… I just wanted my nose to stop running and my throat to stop hurting and to stop coughing!! lol

But besides that it was SO much fun and every single one of my kids was on their best behavior and we’re planning on hiking every weekend from now until the end of the year! haha (well, not the weekend after I have Everett, obviously!)  photo 103eresized_zps11df1240.jpg photo 119eresized_zpscbd1cd7d.jpg photo 122eresized_zpsda7c17c5.jpg photo 138eresized_zps0c41984e.jpg

We made it up to this flat area, which is our only goal when hiking with the littler kids, just in time for the sunset. It was gorgeous!  photo 141eresized_zpsc1982929.jpg photo 148e2resized_zps1f062a49.jpg

Ember had hiked the entire way there by herself but Allan was holding and cuddling her because just before arriving at this stop she’d stumbled and bonked her knee on a rock.  photo 160eresized_zps3af4c873.jpg

Daddy and his hiking buddies.  photo 164eresized_zps06483307.jpg photo 165eresized_zps664019a2.jpg

Mommy and kids. Minus Brooklyn who didn’t feel like having another picture taken right then! (I think she was mad at one of her siblings right then)
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Funny how my entire pregnancy was spent in the desert but only two of my pregnant pictures were taken out in the desert.  photo 173eresized_zpse5f2a806.jpg photo 176eresized_zpse551cb82.jpg

The oldest and youngest. For another two weeks 😉  photo 186eresized_zps83ac204b.jpg

All my daughters! ♥♥♥  photo 190eresized_zps93e9977f.jpg photo 193eresized_zps2e028df3.jpg

Mommy’s funny!  photo 204eresized_zpsdde0d302.jpg

The two that look like Allan! (I hope Everett gets Allan’s brown eyes! It’d be cool to have another brown eyed baby in this family!)  photo 218eresized_zps6384dd2b.jpg

I try to take some zoomed out shots each hike… Allan was getting a cactus off Payson’s pants in this picture.  photo 235eresized_zps98a0f063.jpg

We’ve been having some major, major bullying issues in our home. I typed up an entire post about it last Friday but then deleted it for Brooklyn’s sake 😉
Allan had this genius idea to make it a special project of Brooklyn’s to be Payson’s buddy and be nice to him. If we notice Brooklyn being nice to Payson we’ll keep track of it on a chart and every week or so Allan will do something special with her. Maybe not a prize or treat but just extra time together or a campout (she LOVES camping) or something.
He’d just talked in depth with her about it that day so right before the hike he told her that she could be Payson’s hiking buddy and lead the family on the hike. Since both she and Payson love being in front of everyone else it worked out really well! Payson was SOOOO happy that Brooklyn was being nice to him!  photo 249eresized_zps34e2233f.jpg photo 259eresized_zpsd9ff613f.jpg

Allan carried Ember all the way back to the car. She was loving cuddling into his shoulder and being able to leisurely look all around on the way back 🙂  photo 262eresized_zps0a5e75b3.jpg photo 263eresized_zps9285bb95.jpg

I’m Going to Have a Baby This Month!!

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Everett has dropped. Like, dude is hanging out on my cervix. haha
I’m 3cm dilated and 70% effaced and the doctor says Everett’s head is right there! Everything’s ready to go!  photo 171ecropresized_zpsb287f28b.jpg

Ember wanted to wear her Halloween costume all day so she was dressed up for my appointment.  photo 093eresized_zps5f5c5a4f.jpg

I filled Ember’s Dora bag up with a couple toys and snacks to keep her busy during my appointment. She loved it!  photo 100eresized_zps0782aa72.jpg

I’m now feeling really ready to meet my little boy. I’m glad he’s not here yet since I’m suffering with a really bad cold (I have NO voice today!! Eek), but anytime he wants to come after I kick this is fine with me! Based on past pregnancies he’ll probably be here around the 20th!
♥ C a n ‘ t ♥ W a i t ♥  photo 214eresized_zps5027866a.jpg photo 215eresized_zps506b1409.jpg

So Pregnant, So Much Fun, Halloween is Coming

Man, I am so pregnant. I still don’t feel ready to have a baby. I mean, I WANT my baby and to hold him and kiss him and love on him, but I’m not ready for him to be here yet. I have too much to do. Nothing that involves preparing for baby, either, since I’ve been ready for him for months now. haha!
I just want to know, you know, if we’ll be living here or moving in the next couple weeks!! (We should find out today)
But then again, I’m sick to death of being pregnant so if I had him I’d be pretty happy about having my body to myself again!  photo 028eresized_zpsaf3c831f.jpg

The kids love decorating for Halloween. We have raided the dollar section of Target and the dollar store for super cheap Halloween decorations.
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The kids mess with all the Halloween stuff all the time so it never looks how it did originally. But I don’t care. They love it and it was for them so… it’s all good.  photo 008eresized_zps28791a7c.jpg

I printed a small album with all of their past costumes and they love looking through that. I didn’t photograph that because it’s kinda boring but here’s our calendar area.  photo 011eresized_zpsa67e21d8.jpg

Potty training is going okay. Ember’s peed in her potty and had a few accidents. I’m using the potty training approach of: put kid in undies, tell her where to pee, let time work out all the kinks. AKA: lazy. But it works pretty well. haha!  photo 072eresized_zps4277ac51.jpg

The girls did a small experiment with coke and nerds candy. Payson was in quiet time for being naughty in the store earlier that day.  photo 098eresized_zps70881703.jpg photo 100eresized_zpsf36a9741.jpg photo 101eresized_zps3ad00865.jpg photo 109eresized_zps8f0dd599.jpg photo 115eresized_zps3e3f0b1e.jpg photo 118eresized_zps2fd24075.jpg photo 127eresized_zps7342d034.jpg

I found some charts for them to fill out. We have tons of these printed out and when they finish them we put them in their scrapbooks with the pictures from the experiment. I love scrapbooking 🙂
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I ended up being late to my doctor appointment because I chose to drop the kids off at school instead of bringing them with me. I didn’t think my mental health could take the hit of being at the doctor’s with four children! I loathe being late 🙁  photo 013eresized_zps9a8d4a30.jpg

Ember was being so sweet and cute during the wait, it really cheered me up!  photo 017eresized_zpsa4bda53c.jpg

I did not have fun attempting to use the timer to take some belly shots. But I hate asking Allan to (and he’s been getting home waaaaaaaaaaay past dark this week) so, there’s no other option if I want to document this GIANT belly.  photo 030eresized_zpsf1b0b369.jpg

I looked super washed out so I went and put on lipstick to add some color to my face. haha! I should wear lipstick all the time. It perks up a tired face!  photo 041eresized_zps9b360651.jpg

We had parent teacher conferences. I wasn’t expecting such glowing reviews of my children from their teachers. That was a happy day! (And I was pretty proud because each teacher told me I pretty much nailed teaching them at home because they’re all exceeding expectations. Woot woot)  photo 077eresized_zpsf9c1f603.jpg

In the picture above they’re holding up their book fair purchases. I try not to but can’t help myself supporting their school. I HATE what our school chooses to spend money on (I could scream when I hear they bought more ipads or computers) but yet, I participate in all the financial support we can. I just really wish they’d buy more quality books and supplies and no ipods or ipads.  photo 085eresized_zpsecab66bb.jpg

I let Brooklyn be the picture taker. Payson was bummed because he loveslovesloves pushing the shutter button when we do these types of pictures. I told him he could take a few extra at the end. So anyway, that’s why I seem focused on him… I was trying to cheer him up. haha
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Brooklyn took a dozen pictures and then at the end I let Payson run over to push the button. He was happy after that! (and Brooklyn was happy since she’d been the designated photographer, win-win!)  photo 088eresized_zpsfa4e5795.jpg

We did a Frankestein art project. I told them to do dot style paintings with q-tips. Sierra and Payson did but Brooklyn refused and kept saying it was really stupid. She ended up painting her picture fully in with the q-tip. When Payson was done with his dot version he ended up copying Brooklyn and painting the entire thing in. So anyway, I really liked the way all four of the kids’ pictures turned out. Payson’s looked the most monster-ish:
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And Sierra’s was done exactly like I’d said to and turned out cute. (oh and the other two pictures are a couple of Brooklyn’s Halloween art projects from the last couple of weeks that I like. I don’t know what it is about that ghost, it’s so simple but I just love it.  photo 031eresized_zps47548dac.jpg

In my next house I want a designated wall for the kids’ art projects. Here in this house we have art projects on like five different walls right now. haha  photo 026eresized_zpsfa13b9e5.jpg

The kids played with some slimy stuff we’d made.  photo 095bwresized_zps50f117f1.jpg

Ember refused to touch it. She kept saying it was yucky and would get her dirty 🙂  photo 100bwresized_zpsbb6b32f7.jpg

This week there’s regularly a naked baby running through the house. She’d just peed in her potty. lol  photo 112bwresized_zpsf6517e2c.jpg photo 127bwresized_zps1277db30.jpg

I bought a pack of vampire teeth because Brooklyn LOVES vampire teeth and the kids wore them a lot that day. Ember tried and tried to get them in her mouth but they were way too big.  photo 015bwresized_zps7b71d264.jpg photo 021bwresized_zps53355ffc.jpg
And as for Everett, he’s getting huge, everything seems healthy and perfect from what one can tell during pregnancy, and I feel like he’s with us all day long because I can feel his limbs and his body movements ALL day. Even just standing cooking dinner or whatever, I feel arms and legs moving all over the place. I think a lot about how fun it’ll be when he’s in the wrap on my chest during these things instead of inside of my body. Oh and all the kids have felt him moving around and kicking and they talk about him a lot. I guess to sum it all up he’s already such a part of the family even though none of us have met him. It’s a fun, weird thing to be pregnant! I can’t wait to meet my baby! I hope this next month flies by!

For the Sake of the Post!

Dude, I’m so over blogging.
Is this the 7 year itch? haha.
That’s insane that I’ve been blogging 7 years. Eeps. Who needs to talk to the internet for that long?!

Anyhizzle… here are some pics and some words because that’s the blogger thing to do 😉
I’ve reached that phase in pregnancy where my maternity clothes still fit but I’m so sick to death of wearing the same clothes all the time that getting dressed causes me to feel like screaming and throwing things. And going to the store in my pajamas. Why is it not acceptable to go out in pjs when preggo?! It should be acceptable.
Here is an outfit I tried on but didn’t buy. (Ember was being a sleeping baby puppy, Payson her puppy brother)  photo 080eresized_zpscba45cf5.jpg

I can’t even remember the last time I bought pringles for my kids. We get lays or ruffles sometimes but pringles? Must’ve been at least two years ago or more!  photo 022eresized_zpse54b2921.jpg

Junk food makes us super happy!  photo 067eresized_zps78bc5c93.jpg

These kids of mine and their endless messes are making me feel like I need to be medicated to handle the crazy.  photo 107eresized_zps41e243fa.jpg

Sierra asked me if I would take a picture of her by this bushy tree the other day. I suppose we’re all not used to seeing green and the event needed to be captured? ha
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Sister does what big sister does.
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Ember is by far my most picky eater. She is the pickiest eater I could ever imagine. Two of the only foods she’ll consistently eat are: cereal and cheese. It’s frustrating.
Here she is enjoying some Raisin Bran. In a paper bowl with a plastic spoon because I’m super wasteful like that these days.  photo 009eresized_zpsf3b59006.jpg photo 018eresized_zps133c3e95.jpg

Real fruit popsicles. Fave treat around here considering we’re still having hot summer temps despite the October written on my calendar. Good job, Arizona. Heat is the bestest thing ever! :/  photo 027eresized_zpsc56eb691.jpg

Telling me his favorite kind was grape.  photo 040eresized_zpse45ed085.jpg

Sierra’s funny. I should photograph her more. But, you know, I feel like I’m invading their privacy and/or annoying the crap out of them when I ask for a picture.  photo 050eresized_zps31e355fd.jpg
Wanna hear something ironic? Allan just got a good promotion at work today. But next week he’s off to Colorado for a house hunting trip because most likely we’re moving there soon. I really wish I didn’t hate the heat or the desert so he could stay in a job that’s going super awesome but, I’m so miserable here I could actually die. So despite a glorious work situation, we gotsta go. And despite Colorado not exciting me in any way, anywhere is better than the desert. ‘cept the bayou or ultra hot and humid places! Humidity is the worst!

It Starts to Break Down

Next month I will have a baby. I am very glad because this month, bursting with pregnancy… is not my favorite.

Fall Break is not helping things. My kids home all day every day when the weather is still super hot. I’ve hated every single second of this week.

Today it is cooler (not cool) and rainy so that’s awwwwesome. But my kids have asked to go outside a few dozen times and I’ve said, “When you clean up my family room and kitchen.” And I’m standing firm. Destructive little brats completely destroyed my house in one day. There were several times where they literally threw a box full of crap (toys and papers) from their bedrooms or the play room onto the family room floor. What kind of person does that?! Sierra this morning, after cleaning for ten minutes, threw her two handfuls of crayons on the floor when she got mad at Payson. I told her, “Not a smart idea because you have to pick them all up now.”

Kids. They’re not the funnest.  photo 224e2resized_zpsa0e745aa.jpg photo 205eresized_zps864c6ace.jpg photo 120eresized_zpsa214dcfb.jpg

Everett is going to be my last child. I love babies. I do not love raising a bunch of kids. And I hate being pregnant.  photo 078eresized_zpsd3488878.jpg