This was the last day we went to Brooke’s school, it was for a conference and we saw a project she did displayed in the cafeteria. I pulled Brooke out to homeschool the rest of the year since all my other kids are. With all the emotional trauma going on in my kids I knew it was needed that we spend more time with less chaos from public school and more bonding, peaceful moments at home. I was nervous about the decision but had been feeling like it was needed for this time. The plans about schooling next year change all the time. I know what I would choose if I could choose but I also know I don’t control almost anything anymore and have to just go with whatever happens, make the most out of what life brings.
For now, I’m treasuring days spent with my kids, especially the laid back ones where we stay home and I clean the house in the morning before they all wake up, we have breakfast, and then we hang out together. We read a lot of books and talk and visit and heal emotionally. I’m gearing up for more of an academic focus next month, May will be a bustling month of education (math and language arts heavy!) and it’ll be good. But April is for family reading, coloring, art therapy, science and history books, hiking and outdoor times, and reestablishing normal. It’s all about trying to regain security and stability in insecure and unstable times.