Clean Up, Clean Up!

It was time for our monthly cleaning out under the couch. I had the little kids help because they thought it was fun!















They loved watching me vacuum after they cleaned up the toys and trash.















The finished clean room!















I so want to get a rug in this room, it needs a pop of color. And curtains. And a family picture for the bare wall. But… that all costs money! I’m keeping an eye out for sales!















I vacuumed my bedroom as well. This room needs more color, too. But you know, this room feels really refreshing to me, really light, which is such a relief. I need more lightness in my life.




























Ember and Everett play with that kitchen and the Legos in my room all.the.time. So glad I set up a little play area for them in here!




























My kids have been doing daily chores and we’ve been working on kind attitudes as well. I got a chore chart from the dollar store and we fill it out every day. It helps! They also get tablet privileges if they go to bed on time, without a fight, and stay in bed without getting up to go pee or get a drink of water a dozen times!















I get Ember to sleep in her own bed probably one out of every ten nights. The rest of the time she’s in bed with me and Everett. Kicking, hitting, and thrashing the night away. I am thinking about getting her a sleep test soon because she seriously thrashes around so much at night and she also snores. I am waiting for when her cold is done and then I’ll take her in to see a doctor and figure out if something is wrong that needs to be helped!















This was this evening, Brooke and Sierra watching Goosebumps on Netflix.















Our Little Old Valentine’s Day

I wanted to do a little something for my kids but don’t have a lot of money for holidays like Valentine’s Day so off to the dollar store we went. Just going to the dollar store is loads of fun for kids anyway. I managed to buy enough to have a fun little morning for $10! 5 Valentine’s boxes. 3 bags of Valentine’s chocolates to put in the boxes. Two packages of heart decorations for the wall. Done. $10!

And seriously… look how much fun my kids had there!




































































That night the kids made Valentines for everyone in the family.















Everett saw me putting the Valentines on the table the night before and he woke up way early and hurried straight to the table! He remembered! Woke up thinking about that candy! haha









































We watched What About Bob just because my kids have never seen it. I forgot there was swearing in that movie. Sheesh.















We had heart shaped pancakes. We actually had these the night before but they fit better right here

at the end of this Valentine’s Day blog post. haha















































Everett is Locked Out

You know when you have a toddler who is obsessed with getting into everything he shouldn’t how crazy you get? My goodness gracious I was starting to get so stressed out every minute of every day! We have an open floorplan and it felt, and it was, like every single square foot of the house had something in it for Everett to cause trouble with. He has his favorites, of course. The toilet. The pantry. The garbage. On top of the table and counters and my desk.


So, what’d I do? Bought more baby gates. Gated off the entire front of the house. That’s where a couple bedrooms are, a bathroom (which Everett tried to get into constantly) and the laundry room. I also gated off the pantry because 90% of the mess and destruction and food stealing came from there. I also put all the dining chairs on the other side of the biggest baby gate after every meal so that Everett can’t use them to push up to the counter or to climb onto the table with. The house has been SO much more peaceful the last few days. What a relief!

Before baby gates: (he’d used a chair to push up to the counter and get the leftover ice cream. Used another chair to climb up on my desk with his stolen treat. This kid!)


















I almost felt guilty when he started crying heartbroken tears over being blocked off from his fun toilet. But you know that passed quickly because… toilet. TOILET.
















Why Is It Thursday and Not Friday?

I am dreading getting up early tomorrow. I’m so exhausted! Not just exhausted because I haven’t had enough sleep in 22 weeks but also just worn out of mornings. Brooke and Payson have schools that start an hour apart so I get Brooke ready for school and whoever else is already up eats breakfast with her. Then we head out the door, gathering everyone up and getting them in the car and we drive down to her school and drop her off. Then we come home and I feed the rest of the family and then I get Payson ready and gather everyone up to head out the door a little less than an hour later to drop him off. It sucks.
Plus, I’m taking care of the kids alone 24/7 minus maybe two hours a week so it’s just very tiring. Everett has been crying a LOT during the night and I have no idea why. We’ve been sick since November and he still is sick with what looks like a new cold but why is he up crying all night? He asks to breastfeed and I only let him maybe once because it hurts.too.freaking.bad so maybe that’s why but honestly he’d been sleeping okay without breastfeeding for the last week so… maybe it is just him feeling sick. Whatever it is I’m so freaking exhausted!! I have nightmares about my marriage and divorce and when he wakes me up in the middle of the night I have severe anxiety attacks and despite being so tired I feel like I could actually die, I can’t fall back to sleep! He does that a good 5-10 times at night so… I’m getting such little sleep.

So yeah, I’m a zombie and I only took two pictures today. But I have a few photos from my point and shoot camera so I’ll just share them. I don’t usually share those but, for the sake of blogging something…

I made cookies for family home evening and Everett got into the bag. I saw him right before bed doing this:


I already blogged about my pregnancy checkup but here are the two point and shoot pictures we took that day.


During the ultrasound. Allan came, I figured he’d probably want to see his daughter so I texted him when it was and he came from work to see the ultrasound. And he took this picture. And then the ultrasound tech told him no photos allowed. That seems like a silly rule.


Sierra took a couple pictures when we went to Wendy’s for lunch.


And these were the only pictures I took today, while making lasagna. Everett loves to be at the counter “helping” during each meal prep.



Monday through Wednesday!

So Monday morning before school:















I got stuff ready to make cookies later that night for family home evening.


Ember was pretending to be a kitty.
Everett joined her.
They were having so much fun Sierra joined too.
Ember was in charge of treat this Monday so she made the cookies.
Brooke gave the lesson and even put together a treasure hunt that lead to the cookies and ice cream we ate! Then Sierra chose the activity and she picked watching Jumanji!

We watched it on Netflix on the tablet. Oh and Payson was in charge of picking out and leading the song. He chose his favorite church song, I Am a Child of God.


Tuesday after dropping Brooke and Payson off at school we went to the library.


Everett fell asleep on the drive home.
Random belly shot Ember wanted to take with me.
Today, Wednesday, was my monthly checkup and our last ultrasound to peek at baby! There are quarter machines in the lobby so the kids got candy on the way out.


Brooke wanted to take a belly picture with me. I’m showing a lot today! Month 5 is finally the month I look pregnant!

Well, sorta pregnant. Sometimes. But I suppose mostly I still just look like I gained weight. haha


Sierra wanted to take a bunch of pictures so the next few are from her.
































Sierra and Ember wanted macaroni and cheese instead of burritos and they wanted to make it themselves, too.


Life with Kids on the Weekend

Friday night. Ember has slept in my bed ever since Allan moved out. I’m not sure how long this will last. I’m just letting her for now.


Saturday morning. The kids got a tablet for Christmas with all the gift cards family gave them. I’m so thankful for that, I could never afford to get them a tablet! I don’t allow screen time every day but on weekends is when they get to play the most!






























Painting time.

We went to the Verizon store because the other day I dropped my phone and the $30 tempered glass cover on it totally shattered but guess what! My phone was totally unharmed!! I wanted to get another tempered glass cover as soon as possible because those things work! While at the store the guy working there told me my phone case was obnoxious. I said, “I like it. I like sparkly things.” Plus I got both my over-the-top phone cases on sale for only $4.99 on Amazon! Extravagant for $5? Yep, I accept.













But really the phone case I always use, my favorite, is this one:















I have one that looks like a wallet, too. All the ones I got on Amazon go on sale for around 5 bucks all the time. Free shipping, too.















Here’s a close up of the tempered glass cover. You can’t even tell it’s on… it’s totally clear 🙂















I did a menu plan for the week since we needed to go the store.















And Everett got a hold of his bowl of cereal from the morning.














And played in my room while I cleaned that mess up.















Wal-Mart. I remember when I used to shop at organic health food stores. Not a luxury I have anymore. If you can afford to do so, feel lucky. haha















I found some baskets on clearance at Wal-Mart for 88 cents. Finally was able to organize the produce in my pantry instead of having bags falling open and spilling all over the place all the time!















I write on the whiteboard every day. The kids love it, they’re really into seeing what’s for dinner that night and the next. They love food! haha















I made a big batch of artisan bread dough last week and we bake a small loaf each day and eat it with lunch or for an after school snack. SO GOOD!!















Everett is still breastfed and I swear he’s so obsessed with it lately. He asks all the live long day for mama nana. It drives me nuts because a) I don’t have much milk while pregnant b) it hurts to breastfeed while pregnant. So sometimes I just say no and try to distract him. It rarely works.















But once in a blue moon I manage to help him forget he’d wanted it. This day I was using one of his plastic dinosaurs to walk around the living room looking for candy. The dinosaur would walk up to any object he came upon (the TV remote, another toy, a sock, etc) and say excitedly, “ooooh yummmmmy!!” and then take a bite and then choke and gag and make spitting sounds and exclaim, “YUCK! Not candy!” Everett laughed each time.



I’m sick of winter. I’m sick of my family being sick all the time and I’m sick of the cold and being stuck indoors. Luckily it’s already February so we’re just a couple months away from everything being beautiful again. Thank goodness. Being able to sit outside with the sun on my face would be something I’d be very thankful for. I so miss my daily walks with the kids, or the times they ride their bikes and we bring bubbles and we just spend an hour or two walking and hanging out around the neighborhood. I can’t wait!

Every day Everett falls asleep on the drive to get Brooke and Payson from school. Sometimes I’m able to move him from his car seat to the couch without him waking up. Those are really nice days.


I Love This Song

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to You always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone


Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing