Sanity Break

I’m procrascinating packing. I packed a lot this morning and am getting closer to being done but now is the point of moving where I’m probably 80% of the way done but the last 20% is way more difficult because it’s the stuff that sucks to pack. Lotions, shampoos, soaps, wipes, and all of that messy, difficult stuff to pack. I hate packing up bathrooms. Plus, I’m looking around at the last few items downstairs (the kitchen, living room, and office) and though it’s all stuff I’m supposed to be bringing on the road trip, and therefore planned to be left unpacked, it bugs me seeing it all sitting out. I think mentally I’d be feeling better if once I finished packing a room it was empty besides boxes. But because we’re bringing stuff, there is a little teeny bit of stuff in each room.

We have two weeks before our PODS will be at our new house so I have to pack stuff into the sequoia to get through those two weeks. I hate that part of planning.

Oh and I should say, that obviously I got a new computer monitor! I wasn’t going to partly because packing a new monitor into the limited space in the sequoia instead of buying one once we got to Idaho seemed stupid. And partly because I didn’t have an opportunity to research monitors and had no idea what to get. Buying a new monitor wasn’t on my mental list in the slightest so it caught me off guard when my old monitor just went black and wouldn’t turn on at all again!

So why did I buy a monitor? Because I needed to empty out my memory cards to my computer before our giant road trip! I’m terrible at uploading my photos from my memory cards to my computer these days. I used to do it every day!! I’d load my photos, go through them, edit some, blog… pretty much daily. And now it’s like maybe once a week!!! It’s really awful and I hate it but I’m so.freaking.busy. This is the busiest I’ve ever been and I’m barely making it. Pictures, blogging, and all that… takes a major back seat.

But I have been taking pictures. And I will empty my memory cards once they are totally full and I want to take more pictures… so I need to empty them all before the road trip.

You know what, this is why I don’t blog these days. I feel brain damaged when trying to type a coherent thought. I’m stressed and tired and scatter brained. I hope that some day I can go back to blogging and it making sense and meaning something and not being me sitting down and typing as fast as humanly possible and then being dissatisfied because I can’t concentrate, and then just hitting publish anyway, and whatever… I can’t even type this idea about being coherent, coherently ๐Ÿ˜‰

We’re moving. I’m glad. I’m glad I’m almost done packing. I’m super duper duper glad we have movers and cleaners coming.

Oh. And I’m sick of spending every second of my life with my kids. Literally, LITERALLY, every single second of the last year (17 months) I’ve been with my kids! Oh okay not if you count that time I was in the ER getting fluids because I was dying… besides that, literally every. EVERY. second. I’m so worn out. Oh and to not be judged harshly, I’m sick of them because they are constantly unpacking things, messing up things, and hanging off my legs asking me for things. Despite making sure we go do something fun every day to get out of the house during this stressful moving season.

BUT. We’re moving! Yay! I’ll have my very own house. Next year the older three will be in school. Next year hopefully Everett doesn’t cry all the live long day like he does now. Next year might be a good one!
And I get to see my FAMILY!! Often! I’ve hardly had the mental space to think about that but it’s true! I can’t wait!!

And now I’m going to sign off and MAKE myself finish my bedroom and bathroom!!! I’ll check in again tomorrow. Because I’m sure I’ll just love rereading this jarbled mess in the future so I should write many more posts while I’m like this :/
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While I Clean Until I Could Pass Out

They do this:  photo 224eresized_zpsgp5vppue.jpg photo 227eresized_zpsw2c6go92.jpg

This was a BAD day. I had just finished scrubbing the bathrooms and taking mounds of trash to the curb and I come inside to see them frantically making messes. It felt the most intentional of any mess making my kids have ever done and I was furious!! They knew how stressed I was and were purposefully making huge messes. These were the two I photographed before having them clean it all up. It was seriously ridiculous and I’m almost disappointed I took pictures to remember because I’m mad all over again three months later ๐Ÿ˜› haha

Moving

Life is just crazy right now. My computer monitor broke and it didn’t make sense to me to go out and buy a new one before moving so I’m blogging on my iPad.ย 

Allan left Sunday morning at like 4am to drive his Corolla to Idaho. He is working at his new job this week. I’m packing the house while he’s gone. It’s really not fun packing, or moving. But it IS fun going to Idaho and moving into our very own house so it’s worth all the anxiety attacks. Our lease with this rental ends in June anyway so we had to move this summer no matter what.
Allan flies home Thursday evening. Thursday is the day the PODS are going to be dropped off. Friday we have movers coming to load the PODS. After the movers we hired house cleaners to come in! I told Allan that I don’t care about holiday presents this year, I only want house cleaners to do the move out cleaning!
We’re sleeping on the floor in our house Friday night and then leaving hopefully by 6am on Saturday morning. We’re staying in a hotel in Idaho until the 30th. I’m not looking forward to all that but it’s short term discomfort so it’s fine. Mostly I just miss my husband right now. I don’t like being alone during difficult times.
I probably won’t blog until we’re in Idaho and have bought a new monitor. But anyway, that’s what’s going on right now.

Cousins! Mostly Everett and Asher!

We finally made time to go see Kevin and Jenna and their boys. Actually it wasn’t so much making time as it was trying to find a time where we weren’t all sick! My family is sick almost every day of every winter so it’s tough visiting during those months.
But I’m glad we were finally all healthy and that we got to hang out! Everett had a lot of fun hanging out with Asher. Asher was having some health problems that he ended up needing surgery for (was that when this was, Jenna?) so he wasn’t his usual happy self. He wasn’t cranky but you could tell he wasn’t loving life right then. Poor baby. It’s not fair when babies or kids have health issues. It breaks my heart ๐Ÿ™

Despite that, I did get a couple cute pictures of the boys together.  photo 013eresized_zpsw1rpw6ti.jpg photo 018eresized_zpsyqs2fjhz.jpg photo 023eresized_zpscy1fkpw0.jpg

Jenna told Asher to give Everett the football and he kept doing that! It was SO cute! Asher’s 4 weeks younger than Everett but was already walking!  photo 033eresized_zpspifk57zl.jpg photo 034eresized_zps6gg9ybxb.jpg

Everett couldn’t walk but was perfectly happy hanging out on the chain link fence the whole time. haha  photo 042e2resized_zpsopr8nyha.jpg photo 045eresized_zpsu0ls2o3v.jpg photo 053eresized_zpsckluqs4c.jpg

I’m kinda sad that besides the pictures of the baby boys I didn’t take any others besides this one:  photo 060eresized_zpsnc0ywiry.jpg