We had the BEST night driving around looking at Christmas lights. The kids had so much fun and were oohing and aahing over all the lights and displays. Allan and I marveled at the memory that was being made; I couldn’t help but think about my own childhood and going to see Christmas lights and how utterly magical it was every single time. I almost couldn’t handle the firm realization that we were/are making our kids’ memories right now. Every day. This is their childhood. While we’re busy dealing with the stress of it all and wondering how to do it all, it’s just happening all around us. By the time we feel like we’ve got this parenting thing figured out our kids will likely be moving out of our home! haha
If we ever figure it out, I guess!
But the moments when you’re just so aware of the present and how powerful and important it is, it becomes emotionally intoxicating. Like you almost can’t breathe because it’s suddenly all so easy and so enjoyable and you can’t imagine ever living without these wonderful people surrounding you. I don’t want to imagine a Christmas season where I’m not in the front seat listening to 5 little voices in the back talk about the Christmas lights outside our car windows. But one day that will be my life. I want that day to stay far away… I want today to stay this way, as crazy and chaotic and relentless as it can be, forever and ever and ever. I love being a mom and having my kids in the home. I love it so freaking much.