Wednesday. Mid week. Kinda blah, right?
I took the little kids to the library and we also went out for lunch. Just because.
I bought baby gates this week and already they have changed my life. I function really well in a clean house. I just do and the baby gates keep my little two out of all the places they should never be in the first place! Like, my kitchen. I hate kids getting into my kitchen and wrecking it!! Well, no more 🙂 🙂
So today at lunch my kids were being adorable and sweet and everything lovely. They usually are when we go out. So Payson is talking to me while eating his pizza and for some reason I could really, really see him right then. I felt like the wind was knocked out of me. He was just adorable and sweet and mine. I was so happy to be sitting there with him. I feel lucky to be his mom.
I’ve been feeling that way from time to time about one kid or the other over the past few months. I don’t know if it’s their ages, the fact that they’re all growing up so fast and seeming to change every single day, or something else completely, but falling in love with your own family members, over and over again, is an amazing joy. It buoys me during this stormy time of uncertainty in my life.
My kids are pretty darn well behaved these days. They do kid things, daily. For sure. But it’s so different. There are almost never ever major freakouts or big tantrums (minus the 2 year old, naturally) or really anything dramatic. Is this me being a better mom with age or my kids being more even keeled with age? haha, I don’t even know. It’s awesome though. I have loved the baby/toddler phase (despite it’s crazy intense workload) SO much and have felt really confused and freaked out by the older-kid phase fast approaching me. Seeing little bits of how that may be, what that will look like… I think it’s going to be a pretty awesome time.
We all got home and I put my camera away. I made the girls a snack (Payson got one, too. Ember was still asleep) and then we did homework and then sat down to watch Africa together. I have been kicking myself for not taking enough pictures of the older girls so I ran and got my camera and snapped this: It’s hard to photograph the girls because by the time they’ve done their homework and had a snack it’s fairly dark and I just don’t think about taking pictures once it’s dark!