Stay Like This

Life as a mom to four little kids is pretty busy. It is so busy at times I feel like my head is going to explode. It’s so busy at times I fantasize about the day when all my kids have moved out and I can go grocery shopping without someone screaming or wandering away from me or I fantasize about cleaning my house and having it stay clean for longer than five minutes… fantasies also include not doing three loads of dishes every day and not wiping other people’s bums.

But if I stop to really think about that, to go further into those thoughts, it’s a terrifying realization. One day these little kids will be off on their own. One day I will be alone, I will have a clean and quiet house… no little voices… no silly stories and potty humor and laughing and even whining and fighting… it’ll all be gone from my daily world.

And that thought, that reality that awaits me, is the exact opposite of my true desires right now in my life. I want to be surrounded by little kids, I want to have all of these little people overjoyed at my attention, thrilled to be with me, excited to share all of their deepest thoughts with me.
What a privilege.

These little kids in my home, these little lives so completely meshed with mine. I want it to never end. I want my children to stay like this, this very moment… forever. Stay my babies, stay like this.
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I took my children to some fun places today.
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We went and saw Madagascar. I’m ashamed to admit I laughed just as much as my kids did. And perhaps, if I’m honest, more.
We then went on a hunt for fitting rooms to change into swimsuits. We had no luck until we finally took the elevator up to the second floor of Dillards. There we found our fitting room and got swimsuited up for some splash pad fun.
Our next plan was getting dinner out but we got distracted for a little bit at a puppy store we spotted on the way back to our car.
After longingly looking at puppies we made our way to Chipotle.
I should mention I breastfed Ember in the car first. She doesn’t nurse out in public much anymore since she can drink from cups and sippies and eat food but sometimes she is pretty set on having mama milk regardless of where we are.
On the drive to Chipotle my two youngest girls fell asleep. It was difficult to keep my eyes on the road with that adorable rear view!
We had fun eating together. On the drive home the weather seemed fairly non torturous so we stopped to walk around outside a little bit.
And then of course we came home and the kids went to bed. And I blogged 😉
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4 thoughts on “Stay Like This

  • I feel the same way about my kids growing up. Sometimes I think it will be nice to not hear kids fighting etc. but then I realize I want them to stay just like this. And don't feel too bad about cracking up in madagascar 3. I did too and also more than my kids. Lol. You guys had a great day! You packed a lot in which is awesome!

  • It's been awhile since I've commented, but this post really struck me. As challenging and frustrating as it can be to raise my little ones, I know I wouldn't trade it for the world. Even on the most difficult days. Thanks for the timely reminder.

  • My greatest advice is this – never wish them to be older. Truly. My kids are 22, 20, and 18. This fall, I will have 3 in college, and as wonderful as that is, I would give anything to be sitting in the place you are now. Have them all little once again. To have them crawl into my lap, and slap wet sticky kisses all over me. I love being a mother. I loved the days of them wanting every single ounce of me. Now, they want, and need me, this is true. But, they are so auto-pilot. They work, they have their own lives. I could cry about it, and I get awfully wistful when I talk about them being grown up, and all they are accomplishing.

    My daughter has an associates degree, and will graduate in May from Stony Brook University with her bachelors. My middle guy is graduating in December with his associates, and going on to SUNY Cortland for his bachelors, and my youngest graduated HS this year, and is going to the local community college to start working on his associates. All good, wonderful, amazing accomplishments!

    But – to have them little, and getting off the school bus once again, to be class mom…..to relive all of those things… Oh, and April, they still fight! 🙂 Age hasn't changed that. Ariana, I love reading your blog, because it does bring me back to those days when mine were littles. You're an amazing mama! Be proud!

  • April, the fighting and silly arguments! Like, do we really need to argue about who sits where in the theater or who is putting their water shoes on the slowest? haha

    Melanie, You're welcome, I needed it this week after a very long summer filled with mothering without a break! haha

    Chevonne, I feel like I know what you mean even though I'm not even close to that point! I would miss the young kids days so much. I'm glad I'm pretty much as the beginning of it all. You must be so proud of all of your kids!!

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