Life as a mom to four little kids is pretty busy. It is so busy at times I feel like my head is going to explode. It’s so busy at times I fantasize about the day when all my kids have moved out and I can go grocery shopping without someone screaming or wandering away from me or I fantasize about cleaning my house and having it stay clean for longer than five minutes… fantasies also include not doing three loads of dishes every day and not wiping other people’s bums.
But if I stop to really think about that, to go further into those thoughts, it’s a terrifying realization. One day these little kids will be off on their own. One day I will be alone, I will have a clean and quiet house… no little voices… no silly stories and potty humor and laughing and even whining and fighting… it’ll all be gone from my daily world.
And that thought, that reality that awaits me, is the exact opposite of my true desires right now in my life. I want to be surrounded by little kids, I want to have all of these little people overjoyed at my attention, thrilled to be with me, excited to share all of their deepest thoughts with me.
What a privilege.
These little kids in my home, these little lives so completely meshed with mine. I want it to never end. I want my children to stay like this, this very moment… forever. Stay my babies, stay like this.
We went and saw Madagascar. I’m ashamed to admit I laughed just as much as my kids did. And perhaps, if I’m honest, more.
We then went on a hunt for fitting rooms to change into swimsuits. We had no luck until we finally took the elevator up to the second floor of Dillards. There we found our fitting room and got swimsuited up for some splash pad fun.
Our next plan was getting dinner out but we got distracted for a little bit at a puppy store we spotted on the way back to our car.
After longingly looking at puppies we made our way to Chipotle.
I should mention I breastfed Ember in the car first. She doesn’t nurse out in public much anymore since she can drink from cups and sippies and eat food but sometimes she is pretty set on having mama milk regardless of where we are.
On the drive to Chipotle my two youngest girls fell asleep. It was difficult to keep my eyes on the road with that adorable rear view!
We had fun eating together. On the drive home the weather seemed fairly non torturous so we stopped to walk around outside a little bit.
And then of course we came home and the kids went to bed. And I blogged 😉