and then it does.
Tuesday was a pretty bleak day for me. I was miserable. Sick, tired, caring for nonstop crying little kids. I remember thinking, I can’t handle any more of this!! And then Wednesday was even worse! And then today, still bad! Every day seems worse than the one before. This month has been pure and utter hell for me!
Ember threw up on me again (I never blogged about the first few times) yesterday. It was all over both of us and the boppy. I picked us all up and plopped us all down in the bath to strip off the barfy clothes. I piled everything on top of a towel, to wash later, and started a shower. We stayed in there for at least fifteen minutes. Washing the puke and horrible, horrible start to the day away. Clearing our throats and noses of mucous. It was a good shower. The only part of the day that was bearable, really.
As soon as we were out of the shower and dressed things were back to their sticky, mucousy, whiny, crying ways. Everyone, including me, was miserable. Everyone is sick, everyone is cranky.
The only thing that kept me remotely sane was the fact that he was so agreeable to the idea of napping! This kid hasn’t napped forever so the fact that he’d climb onto the futon and fall right to sleep was amazing! He’d wake very often and all hell would break loose (it was bad!) but in the moments where he was dozing, things were fairly calm. And by calm I mean I paced the house with a cranky Ember most of that time and sometimes, for a couple minutes, Payson would be asleep and Ember would play with toys and for two or three minutes it was almost like a normal life!!
Payson was so cranky I finally remembered my ipod (the kids haven’t played with it for a while) and asked if he’d like to play. He said yes and ended up playing it for over an hour! Which was perfect timing because that hour was when Ember was the crankiest! Thank goodness for ipods. If I could afford it I’d buy four more of them! haha
Payson did eventually get sick of playing ipod games and gave the ipod to Ember. She had been super cranky and it cheered her up! I really love that freaking ipod. I just bought this case for it because Ember occasionally chews on it but mostly she pushes the home button over and over and then whines for me to fix it, over and over and over…
They kiss each other a lot. Unprompted, too. They are best friends. The last few weeks their relationship has really blossomed, too. They always loved each other but now they play games and with their toys together. It’s really cute. I wish they were healthy and we could go back to that!
We were all so sick we spent most of the day laying on this futon together. Well, I’d get up whenever possible to tidy up and get drinks and change diapers and stuff, but besides that we were there on the futon.
Ember’s had quite a few baths. From being covered in puke to being covered in spoiled milk to being covered in spit out food. (she doesn’t have a big appetite this week) The spoiled milk is because with her stuffy nose she starts to nurse and then immediately pulls off to breathe and milk sprays everywhere; she does that latching on and popping right off about ten thousand times a day, so we’re aways drenched in breastmilk.
So anyway, baby gets lots of baths. The hot water steam in the air is nice, too. As is easily rinsing away all the eye goop.
Yesterday, Wednesday, Brooklyn was home from school with pink eye and that actually turned out to be so awesome because she took on the role of Payson’s helper. She read a ton of books to him and then when I let her play with the ipod she found a bunch of hilarious youtube clips that they watched over and over. The gummy bear song and the I’m so happy I’m a gummy bear video. We’re watching them on repeat again today and it’s the only thing that stops Ember’s crying! She clutches the ipod and stares at the scree and even dances along to the gummy bear song.
Otherwise, she’s screaming.
I tried dozens of times to get her to take a nap. Even a ten minute nap is enough for me to cope with life. When I hold a crying baby ALL day, even ten minutes is a lifeline. After being awake all day she finally fell asleep into a deep sleep at 2:50pm. And we leave at 3 to go pick up Sierra! That sucked!
I already mentioned this on facebook. Today was cat in the hat day. The whole week was a reading themed dress up week. I didn’t take pictures on Tuesday and Wednesday because those days were SO bad I could barely function. But today even though the morning was totally traumatic and Ember was screaming I made sure to grab my camera to get a picture of Sierra. I actually had to stop and go back and unlock the door and go get the camera after I’d started to drive away. I obviously normally don’t do that but it was worth it. Sierra was happy that I took her pictures, too 🙂
On the drive to the school I realized I had not only NOT changed out of my pajama top (just threw on a sweater and jeans!) or done my makeup but I hadn’t brushed my hair or even glanced at myself in the mirror. I was SO stressed out this morning trying to get four kids out the door when all they wanted to do was writhe on the ground screaming and crying… that what I look like didn’t cross my mind. And it showed. (It was worse in real life, trust me)
I’d taken a quick shower with Ember yesterday when she puked all over both of us and done some quick braids and they’d half come out while I laid in bed last night. I say laid in bed and not slept because last night was an all nighter for me. Ember would NOT sleep at all unless my bare breast was on her face (she would’ve been nursing, too, but she couldn’t with her stuffy nose) with milk spraying everywhere and her pinching my nipple over and over and over with her talons nails. NOT FUN.
See, we look like a sickly bunch, don’t we?
I felt extremely embarrassed in the store. We all looked really sick and everyone was coughing up a lung or two. I haven’t had any truly uncontrollable coughing fits until the checkout line this morning. Of course out of almost two weeks of being sick the five minutes I’m in public I can’t stop coughing!
Oh yeah, we HAD to go to the store because it was my turn to bring snacks for Sierra’s class and I didn’t know about it until the last minute and didn’t have anything prepackaged. So, off to the store this deathly ill crew went.