Sweet Chaos Rightfully Named

This week was quite a week. Oh man, oh man, oh man, it was quite a week.

I am SO glad I didn’t blog during the bits and pieces of free time I had this week because emotionally I was so overwhelmed it would have been nonstop complaining! haha

Even last night when I was about to blog I just shut off my computer and went and took a burning hot shower instead.

The reason I had such a hard week was because I started Payson on the GAPS diet.

If you don’t know what GAPS is (I didn’t two weeks ago) it is a special diet created to heal the intestines by giving them a break and letting the good bacteria in the gut build up.

What is the diet?

Broth, meat, eggs, a few vegetables.

Yes, that’s all.

I can tell you there have been at least a hundred times this week where I wanted to burn my GAPS book and drive to the store that second and buy enough rice milk to last for the next ten years. I was that done with the constant crying from Payson.

But I just told myself over and over again that this was all short term. And then I’d argue back to myself that two years is not short term!!
(He will eventually have fruit on this diet. Along with nut flours.)

Then I’d tell myself that I have no choice; Payson’s intestinal condition was getting worse all the time and doctors had no answers or solutions and this book made sense and felt right as I read it.

So on we go, struggling every single second of the day with it! But on we go…

So I have a hundred pictures and I’m just going to jump in and talk about them.

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She was helping me do laundry.
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Brooklyn at JCPenney.
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Chicken and broth, GAPS diet staples.
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Payson is really, really, really upset about the diet change. He wants his bottle and his rice chex and his pretzels and his nuts and his oatmeal. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest when he sadly asks me for his previously main diet staples. But his intestines have gotten so bad. There is truly no other way.
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Last weekend when I woke up Allan told me it had snowed. I ran into the backyard to take a picture of the snowy mountain behind our house. How cool is that?
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The weather was all sorts of crazy this week. It even hailed at our house.
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The kids wanted to see the hail so they went outside for a while.
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Sunday Payson was upset because we ran out of rice milk so he couldn’t have bottles and he was SO upset. He cried ALL day until Allan pulled out his racecars and set up a cool road using blankets and pillows.
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I’ve spent pretty much my entire week comforting him. 6 days straight of him crying and me trying to distract or just cuddle him. I’m so worn out.
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The kids got really silly.
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They’d beg me to take more and more pictures so that they could then look at the back of my camera and laugh until they cried.
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I sneakily snapped this while I was talking to her.
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Lots of kisses for my poor, suffering boy. (That bottle was full of water which he didn’t like, but he still carried it around)
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Sierra started whipping her hair back and forth (anyone know that Willow Smith song? I hate that song but when Sierra did this it got stuck in my head!)
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Oh my gosh I was laughing so much. She really got into it.
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And Brooklyn seeing me laugh had to steal the spotlight!
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Then they did it together.
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Then I told them to smile and hug each other.
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Then I asked to see their blue eyes.
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And, um, I joined in the craziness.
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I wish I had more time to spend with my Seesee.
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Later in the day Payson came up to me begging for a bottle.
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I took some pictures of Ember when I realized she was now 5 months old!!
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I love her face β™₯
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She is learning to sit up on her own!
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Oh this… after Brooklyn’s tumbling class she reminded me that her penpal, Mia, had asked if she’d ever touched a cactus. Which she has many, many times. She wanted me to take a picture to show Mia that it’s easy and as long as you touch the green part you won’t get poked!
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It was snowy Sunday so Allan asked me if I wanted to drive up to his work (his office is in the mountains) to let the kids play. We stopped at Picketpost Mountain so I could get a picture of it with the snow.
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It was so cool.
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Taken as we drove into the mountains. This is only 20 minutes from our house.
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Ember napped during the drive.
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Allan got the kids bundled up when we arrived. This road is really close to his office.
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We played for a little while. I didn’t take pictures because I was holding Ember the whole time. Payson went and put his gloves in the car. Which told me that our trip was coming to an end because I knew his hands would get cold.
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Allan held Ember so I could snap a few pictures.
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Some snow flicked onto Sierra’s face.
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The kids had a really good time.
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Payson’s hands got cold so I took him and Ember into the car and turned the heater on full blast.
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Payson was crying at this point. He cried the rest of the time we were there.
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Crying while eating his rice chex.
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Crying while I tried to cheer him up.
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Whining as he chews.
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Oooooh, there was a few seconds of silence from him!
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Ember, meanwhile, was being the happiest baby in the world. Chewing on my camera strap as I took pictures.
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Then I handed her a toy instead.
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She loves her baby toys.
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Allan was outside packing up the car and changing the girls’ clothes.Photobucket

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Then the drive home started…
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Allan and I were giggling about eating the suckers. All the kids were SOOOO whiny that we thought, forget them, we’re having the treat. haha
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We stopped at Picketpost on the way back to get a sunset picture.
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The next day, Monday, was the official start of the GAPS diet. Payson was initially excited about his yummy chicken soup.
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I did some lesson planning.
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Ember played on her playmat.
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I made a roast and was happy to have beef broth to add to Payson’s menu.
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I always have companionship while I cook.
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Ember has been sick this week, many of her naps were taken in the wrap.
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I made a desperate trip to the store on Tuesday when we ran out of vegetables. Payson ONLY gets meat and vegetables so I had to go.

Ember had a poopy diaper.
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And I also forgot my wrap and my back has been getting worse and worse this month so I sat Ember in the front of the cart for the first time.
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Payson refused to eat that day so he was feeling weak.
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Ember loved sitting in the cart.
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She jumped and bounced around happily the entire shopping trip.
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I nursed her in the car before heading to Target.
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Poor Payson was so tired. But really it’s not my fault he refused to eat!
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He was super whiny in the store so I let him draw in my notepad.
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The girls played.
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I bought new pans for my birthday. We’ve had the same cheap pans for 8 years of marriage and they were starting to flake a lot into our food! My birthday is at the end of this month so some hard-anodized aluminum pans were my gift! I LOVELOVELOVE them.
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Ember refused to nap in her swing or in bed so in the wrap she went.
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I stopped working to play dominoes with Payson.
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He felt special and is in love with his new Cars “matches.”
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Ember was still sleeping.
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The girls joined Payson.
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I went back into the kitchen to finish up. I was happy about the food I had for the next day.
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The kids were still playing with dominoes.
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I let Brooklyn make some videos this week.
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She told me she wants to be a videographer when she grows up.
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I think that’d be pretty cool.
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The girls love watching their videos back immediately after making them.
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Payson was playing with his dominoes.
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He brings a handful of them everywhere these days.
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I’m surprised by how much he likes them! He even took a few to bed last night.
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Ember took yet another nap on another day in the wrap.
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And the next day she started the morning off in the wrap again. I’m glad this wrap is getting such good use now.
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Allan was working from home because his internet at work was down.
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He came out of our room long enough to snap a picture and that’s it. haha
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I was peeling and chopping carrots to go with Payson’s breakfast.
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Sierra was the first to wake up. She wanted to help.
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So we chatted and peeled and chopped.
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A little while later Brooklyn woke up. She’s always the last awake in this house.
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And she wanted to join in, too.
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Payson was busy eating. Eggs and asparagus.
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Allan was working.
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The weather was nice so I sent the kids outside to draw with chalk.
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They ended up making a big colorful mess of chalk and water.
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I brought out a bowl of water for Payson to play with his water toys in. It got stepped in and sat in and then dumped out all within a couple minutes.
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Allan was still working.
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Payson went back outside after getting a swim diaper on.
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Brooklyn’s permanent teeth look like they’re growing in quite crooked. I didn’t expect anything less with my genetics; I have really crooked bottom teeth.
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I’m going to wrap up his post with some pictures of my baby girl.
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She learned how to roll over this week.

She now rolls over any time she’s on her back on the floor.
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Whew, I’m going to bed!

6 thoughts on “Sweet Chaos Rightfully Named

  • People just have no idea how busy being a mommy can be during the day! I think some women don't do as much as you do & do take advantage of being home to do very little. But good Lord, you are hands on with those kids!

    I have been missing all of my grandkids something fierce this week. I also miss the times when I held all of you & you were tucked safely home. The future was hopeful & life seemed perfect every time I looked at your little eyes & enjoyed the sheer innocent way kids enjoy life!

    So~ THANK YOU. I know it is busy! I know it is sweet chaos! Which is the perfect blog name, btw! So worth it- but also days where it just seems like endless work & busyness & self sacrifice & your alone time in nil! I know you are endlessly tired of the older generation saying, “Enjoy it because it goes by way too fast”…and I think my heart always knew it was going to be over too quickly! I know you're simply “tired”!

    I am jealous of your new pans! They are very nice. I have been whining for some new pans too! Maybe Milo should get some for HIS birthday?? Haha! He does do alot of the cooking.

    I love you and I LOVED all of these pictures. I am crying as I type this because half of me is proud beyond description. You are the kind of woman my every spoken prayer asked God for you to be & yet I so wish I could go back & have you all to myself, like Ember, & cuddle with you & kiss your soft cheeks over & over again! Thank you for being beautiful inside & outside. Thank you for being a mother! Thank you for putting your own desires on hold while you raise amazing “people”.

    I just wanted you to understand how truly precious this blog is to me esp. with you living so far away. I get to be a part of it in the only way we can make it happen!

    I β™₯ you! Mom

  • I'm so sorry about Payson's food issues. How hard for you both. Have you given him acidophilus supplements? You probably have, but just thought I'd mention it in case. I start giving them to mine babes right after birth, especially if I ever had any antibiotics during pregnancy because antibiotics hide in the crevices of the colon and cause havoc our entire lives. I just break open the capsule and they take the powder straight on their tongue. There are acidophilus cleanses you can do that have a specific regimen to them to help heal the intestine as well. I hope things go well and he gets better!

  • I thought I could edit my comment and I wound up deleting it! Anyways, I can relate, my 2 yr. old is on a pretty strict diet right now. I think the hardest is him wanting what his siblings have. I'm not going to switch over everyone's meals to be like his (but there are some meals I cook for him that I do give to everyone for dinner, but generally I make his meals separate.) Alot of meal planning/baking ahead for him, and it's daily. I can relate to what you're going through though. I know it's tough but it does get better, hang in there! πŸ™‚

  • Happy belated birthday!

    Sometimes when your blog page takes a while to fully load, you can see the background picture in its entirety…breathtaking!

    Wow…it sounds like a horribly difficult week getting Payson started on his new diet (and a lot of extra work for you with all the cooking and stockpiling). Having read your next post, I realize you've modified his diet a bit, but I commend you for sticking with it as long as you did…especially with that sad little face and those weepy little eyes pleading with you. πŸ™ I can only imagine how exhausting and heartbreaking that was.

    I realize this is a ridiculous question as I'm sure you've had Payson tested for everything imaginable with all the doctors you've seen, but I was wondering if Celiac Disease is something the doctors have considered. You mentioned that Rice Chex and rice milk are staples for him; I remember one day on The View, Elizabeth Hasselbeck was saying that she had constant intestinal problems throughout her life until she was a contestant on Survivor. On Survivor she had little more than rice to eat, and while everyone else felt weak and lethargic, she felt the best she had felt in years. That's what led her to discover that she has Celiac Disease. It sprang to mind while I was reading your post, so thought I would at least mention it.

    So strange to see the winter weather in Arizona! What a fun experience for the kids – looks like they really enjoyed it.

    The hair-whipping pics are great and remarkably in focus! It was fun to see mommy getting in on the fun. Yes, I do know that Willow Smith song, and it's so annoying. It sticks in my head for days after I hear it which, fortunately, isn't often!

    Ember is getting sooo big! Loved her rolling-over photos, and the pic of her wearing the black, white & hot pink outfit with the leg warmers. She's a little fashionista in the making.

    The outdoor photos of Payson playing with his dominoes cracked me up. He's just hanging out, playing…like the ball stuffed up the back of his shirt is the most normal thing. I really like the flare in those photos, too.

    Brooklyn looks very “Hollywood” in her debut photos as a cinematographer. πŸ™‚ And what a sweet picture of Sierra playing with chalk on the patio…love her pose and expression.

    You and Allan make such a cute couple. He seems like a wonderful partner, husband and dad. I'm blessed to have one of those amazing guys, too! πŸ™‚

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