Allergies are Brutal, New [Old] Schoolroom!

Sierra snuck a cracker from the table a couple days ago during snacktime. She then brought that cracker back to the table an hour later and left it there.

Why? I don’t know.
What was the result of this random action of hers?

Oh Payson taking a bite and having terrible diarrhea, that’s all.

Boy was I mad. I plan snacktimes during parts of the day that I can watch the girls and make sure Payson doesn’t take food from them. I put their dishes away and lock the pantry and wipe down the table and chairs when they’re done to prevent him from getting food he can’t have.

I’m really tired of changing diarrhea diapers. I’m tired of using ten wipes and wearing plastic gloves and smearing on inches of desitin six or seven times a day. And then the laundry, as if I don’t have enough laundry already.

It’s annoying, exhausting, frustrating, gross, sad, and just unpleasant in every way. Any day he’s having a reaction is automatically a challenging day for me. I am moody and frustrated and have to work very hard emotionally to just take care of the mess and comfort Payson (who is understandably in pain) and try not to let him see any foods that day because he will inevitably ask for apples or broccoli and be very sad when I say no.

Any fruits or vegetables when he’s having a reaction cause worse diarrhea.

*sigh*

His diarrhea is finally gone today after having only rice and meat for the last couple days.
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Yesterday I was cleaning my house, as always, and feeling overwhelmed by the stuff everywhere. I was especially feeling moody about the schoolroom (or lack thereof) situation. We’ve been using our front room and it’s just not working. Payson gets into stuff in there all day long and he is destructive. I need a room that I can lock when we’re not doing school.

I decided to move the schoolroom back into Sierra’s room! It was a big job because Sierra’s room was now going to be the schoolroom and playroom. First I gathered all of the toys in the entire house (where did all of these toys come from?!) and then I sorted them into boxes by category. Barbies, petshops, doll stuff, tea party toys, legos, blocks, etc.
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We’d (I’d) been working for at least an hour when Brooklyn tells me, “Mom, it looks way messier now than it did when we started.” I laughed and told her, “Yep, that’s the funny thing about organizing, it always looks worse before it gets better.”
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The kids did help a little bit. They managed to pick up a full box of stuff while I filled every other box.
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Ember watched from her bumbo.
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Every time I stopped to talk to her or sing her a little song she’d break out into huge grins and laugh.
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And she also sucked/chewed on her thumb a lot. Though I’m very sad to say that the thumb sucking yesterday was a total fluke. She woke up seconds after I posted that last post and besides one other ten minute nap, didn’t sleep again until 9pm!! Yes she stayed up from 7am to 9pm with only two ten minute naps! It was… weird. And hard for me to get stuff done!
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Payson was unhappy that I was cleaning. He doesn’t like me doing stuff. He likes me giving him attention. He sat on my lap most of the time I organized the toys. Which is fine, but he kept whining for more toys to hold and I can’t very well work and clean while holding a toddler who is holding ten toys!
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Most of the afernoon looked like:
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But I sure do loooooove him ♥
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Then he asked me for a bottle. Which he calls bobboo.
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And I said, “You want me to stop cleaning and make you a bobboo??” And he looked at me like, stop talking and get your butt in that kitchen.
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And this, well, I don’t know actually.
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And then I was so so so tired and Ember was so so so tired and cranky so I breastfed her while the kids watched TV and I did some lesson planning for math.
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I use post-its to write down what we’re going to do. I love post-it notes.
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And I thought since Ember fell asleep and it was afternoon and she had been up for 6 hours that she’d take a nap. But no.So I put her in the wrap to get a few things done.
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And she was very happy about that. She loves to be worn in the wrap.
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And I took a picture with my new camera remote.
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Ember loves when I rock her in the wrap.
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I then finished organizing Sierra’s room.
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And brought the little kids in to play while I hung up stuff on the wall.
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Payson was in the best mood ever! I was surprised by how excited he was. He loves that he has his very own area (the storage shelves there behind him) and that the girls aren’t allowed to touch it!
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He really loves puzzles.
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I was playing peek-a-boo with Ember and Payson joined in. He always does this with his face while playing peek-a-boo.
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Ember, tired, watched and gave small smiles occasionally.
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Then got ahold of her sister’s skirt. Yum.
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And that was all I took pictures of yesterday. Which brings us to today. School was so much better in that room!!

Payson played happily with his toys and puzzles while I taught the girls. Usually no matter what toys I bring out for him he tries to get into their school stuff.
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Allan was home from work for the morning so I snapped a picture of us together before he left.
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By the time I’d done the girls’ math and spellings lessons Payson had created quite the mess.
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While Brooklyn wrote down word questions I was asking her, Payson sat on my lap and played with his puzzles some more.
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Photobucket The last thing I took pictures of was Brooklyn memorizing her poem.
We read it together a couple times and then Brooklyn reads it out loud by herself. Each time she does I erase a word until she remembers the whole thing by herself. She’s really good at memorizing stuff but I knew this way would be even funner and it really is 🙂
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The poem is from First Language Lessons and goes:Work while you work,Play while you play;This is the wayTo be happy each day.All that you do,Do with your might;Things done by halvesAre never done right.
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Baby Sleeps Without Boob

Ember went through a short phase last week where she’d wake up at night, nurse, then turn and go to sleep. It was bliss.

The last two nights she’s nursed nonstop all night. No joke. I figured it’s a growth spurt and didn’t worry about it too much but it is hard when your baby won’t sleep at all without being attached to you.

So this morning I was nursing her to sleep and would wait until she seemed to be in a deep sleep and then slowly start to slide away and she’d immediately start rooting wildly for me.

The fourth time this happened she randomly pulled her hand to her face in her near-sleep state and started sucking her thumb. I sat there not moving an inch and watching while she fell right back to sleep. Without me needed.

Woah! Nice!

I waited a couple minutes, gently holding her hand near her face so her thumb wouldn’t fall out of her mouth and when she looked like she was fully sleeping I rolled away. And she stayed just like this:
It’s been ten minutes. I hope she takes a decent nap. She generally has one three hour nap in the mornings and then bitty cat naps the rest of the day. She usually sleeps in her swing, though. Any time I get her to sleep in the bed she wakes up five or ten minutes later.
So… we’ll see what happens. Is it horrible that I’m so so so hoping she is a thumb sucker and manages to sleep soundly that way?

(Sorry about the horrible photo quality, it was totally dark in that room)

Reading, Baby Love, Bit of School

I’ve been reading a lot this week. I bought a couple books and checked out a few more from the library and every spare second I can find I read a bit. The book I’ve been reading the most is one that was recommended to me by two online friends after hearing me vent about Payson’s allergies and the elimination diet we’re doing.
It’s called Gut and Psychology Syndrome and I’m loving it. There is a diet, called GAPS (the initials of the book’s title) that we’re going to start soon. I’ll probably blog more about it as we get further into it.
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Pretty much all of my reading is done while breastfeeding or cuddling with the kids on the couch while they watch TV. Ember loves to grab my book as I read. Her eyes light up if she manages to get a corner in her mouth.
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I was walking past my bedroom and heard giggling coming from Ember and peeked in to see this:
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I always feel guilty when I spoil the moment with my camera so I try not to very often but it’s so nice when I steal a picture or two, like these.
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I was surprised to get a couple blog questions about school recently. I didn’t know anyone was that interested. ha
It’s going really, really, really well. I honestly can’t imagine it going any better! I love every single thing we’re using and much more importantly Brooklyn loves it and is eager for every subject (she still doesn’t enjoy handwriting but doesn’t whine through it anymore) and is retaining knowledge! Joy!

In the middle of a RightStart Math lesson:
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I updated the curriculum link at the top of my public blog to include what we’re using right now. I would highly recommend every single thing. They are so easy to use, for me, and are fun and effective. Gosh, I love our new curriculum! I’ll eventually add a link to this blog I’m just to lazy to go messing with html right now. haha
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Taking pictures during school time is hard. Pretty much impossible which is why there are rarely posts about school anymore. I am pretty much always holding one or two kids while teaching. I try to do a lot of school while Payson naps and sometimes it works out awesome because Ember naps at the same time but other times I’m breastfeeding or holding her while teaching.

And more often Payson refuses a nap or only sleeps for an hour and completely ruins the rest of school time. Schooling with a toddler around drives me absolutely crazy!
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Allan was home yesterday and snapped these of me teaching Brooklyn. Seriously that RightStart Math is worth every single penny and then some!
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Did you notice Payson in the above picture? If not here’s another picture of what he was doing:
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Yep, he is naughty! We were playing games on our whiteboard yesterday and he’s sitting right next to me with a giant huge white canvas in front of him and turns around and colors on the wall!! He is such a stinker! He does things like that every second of the day! His current favorite thing to do is find something to use as a step: a box, a chair, a stool, the ottoman, a pile of books; and drag it over to the counters and get into stuff. Or drag it into the bathroom and get into the cleaning stuff (yes, they’re moved now!) or drag it into the pantry and get into gluten-ridden food, or drag it by his changing counter to mess with the diaper supplies.
Annoying.

Allan honest to goodness bought these hook nail things last night to nail into our chairs and table and attach a leash!! Our table is so old and ghetto I’m not worried about how terribly white trash this will look. All I care about is that the climbing stops! haha

So, he’s a stinker. But oh is he a sweetie, too! Such a loving, cuddly, sweet little boy. He drives me crazy and pushes me to the end of my rope but he is also a blinding, happy light in my life 🙂
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Have I ever talked about how I’m so not a morning person? My gosh mornings are just the worst, aren’t they? I wish I could sleep until 9 every day. Or heck 8. Or heck just sleep through the night. Ember is still waking up several times at night. Though as tired as I am I just love our little nightly get togethers. Get togethers which last most of the night since she sleeps in bed with me, attached to the boob the whole time! I do manage to get her to sleep in her swing for part of the night and it’s blissful when I do. My back is killing me from sleeping on my side all night so she can easily nurse.
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This morning the kids opened up some letters they got in the mail.
Thanks Mindy, they made the morning really exciting! The girls are going to write letters back during Payson’s naptime 🙂
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During breakfast Sierra showed off her super cool trick.
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Payson and Ember just went to sleep so I better go get stuff done while my hands are free!
Nevermind, Ember just woke up. haha

Playing, Park Injury, Rainy Day, and a Lost Tooth

Another huge catch up post today.

Our dishwasher broke last week (I’ve got to do better about getting all the food off before loading!) so I’ve been doing all the dishes by hand. It takes me a good hour every day since we mostly cook from scratch and use almost all of our dishes in one day! Sometimes Ember has tummy time while I scrub and I get this cute view:
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Ember is never left alone for very long. Side note- I told Brooklyn not to hold Ember by her arms like that and Brooklyn was really rude about it! She said that Ember was just fine and she was being careful.Oh well excuuuuse me. I guess I thought I was the mom or something.
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The weather was so awesome at the beginning of the week. The girls colored with chalk.
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Then we hung out on the grass.
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I went inside to put Ember to bed and came back out to read to the girls. This is when we started acting out The Wizard of Oz. The girls loved that.
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Wednesday Brooklyn had tumbling and oh boy it was eventful, shall we say. First, Ember had a diaper change (nothing out of the ordinary). Two older women came in while I was changing her and were talking on and on about how cute he was. They got up close and were cooing and baby talking to her and called her “he” over and over. I was like, really? They kept asking Sierra if she just loved having a baby brother and Sierra stared at them blankly.I took a picture to illustrate… she is wearing dark pink.
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I guess the brown pants maybe gave a boy impression?
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Sierra was begging to go the park and I really didn’t want to because my kids are just recovering from being sick. But I figured… it would be mean to say no since we hadn’t gone anywhere or done anything for weeks.I pushed Payson on the swings and Ember for the first time was aware of that and she laughed and laughed and laughed! She was giggling so hard. She thought it was the funniest thing ever!I put her in the swing with Payson and (holding onto her the whole time, of course) I started pushing them and she laughed even more. It was so cute!I didn’t get a picture of that because I had to hold onto Ember but later Sierra asked if she could swing together with Ember and I did take a quick snap.
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And then the trauma happened. Before I start I should say that Payson is totally fine so it all ended well.I should also say it’s a really long story. I typed it as if it were my journal so I’m talking a full page single spaced… you might want to skip it.But when it happened it was one of the worst moments of my life. I was holding Ember and pushing Sierra and Payson in the baby swings. Some little boy, probably 10, came over and started talking to us. He asks if he can push Sierra for me. Um, sure? So he starts pushing Sierra and I’m pushing Payson.So then Payson wanted to get down. I tried to convince Sierra to get down, too, so I could watch them in the same place at the park (it’s a big park) but she refused.So Payson is wandering around the area near the baby swings while this little boy is pushing Sierra and I’m holding Ember while constantly staying by Payson’s side because he keeps heading in front of the swing and I don’t want him hit.Then a nanny shows up with three little kids. They all head straight for Ember, who is still in my arms. They start holding her hands and talking to her and trying to hug her. It was actually sweet and they were being gentle but my attention was taken off Payson for a few seconds.And that’s all it takes.As I answer one of the little girl’s question about Ember I hear a crash and a cry and I know it’s Payson. I know he’s been hit by the swing because I’d just spent five minutes making sure to stay by his side and watch him like a hawk.Why did I look away? I curse myself, even now, about why I looked away.I know why, I was worried about one of the kids pulling Ember’s arm, which they were all grabbing at, but still, I never should have looked away.I turned and saw Payson laying face first on the ground with a look of agony on his face. He was frozen in that moment before one can muster the breath to cry. His eyes were rolling up and his mouth was open and he was drooling and my heart stopped.I told Allan later that I would never forget that face. It will haunt me forever.I wanted to scream at everyone to get the hell away from me (the park was packed and there were literally 5 people within 5 feet of me trying to talk to me and see Ember!) but I didn’t scream, I just started to set Ember down on my nursing cover but then that nanny offered to hold her, so I passed Ember off quickly and picked up Payson. This all happened in maybe 3 seconds!Oh gosh typing this is awful for me. I can barely keep myself from sobbing about it now.His face was bleeding and bruising immediately and he was in so much pain, trying to breathe and trying to cry but not being able to for a few seconds.I held him close to me as he started crying and screaming. I rubbed his back and his head and whispered, “I’m so sorry, baby. I’m so sorry you’re hurt. I know it hurts. You’re ok, mommy has you.”And held back tears of my own for his sake. I stood there with him in my arms, comforting him, for a while. The people around me were all watching and talking about it and the kid that had been pushing Sierra was next to me trying to comfort Payson, too, and all Payson wanted was me and me alone so I told everyone to back away and give Payson some room. He just wants his mommy.I was a bit of a walk from the rec center where Brooklyn was in gymnastics. I had a toddler, a baby, a really heavy diaper bag and a (surprisingly) throwing-a-fit five year old. Sierra didn’t want to get off the swing. After kicking her brother in the face full speed and seeing him bleeding and screaming.Yeah, pretty annoyed with Sierra right then.So I take Ember from the nanny (and thank the nanny) and grab my diaper bag and carrying all that tell Sierra to get her butt moving right now. We went to the rec center where they gave me some ice packs which Payson refused to let me put anywhere near him. I sat with him in a chair holding him close and soothing him and rubbing his back and checked him over and looked at his pupils and did all the other stuff you do to make sure you don’t need an ER trip (sad that I know the checklist because of falls from this boy!) and he was just fine. Crying and super sad and oh so tiny in my arms (so it seemed) but fine.Brooklyn’s class ended and we made our way to the car. I gave Payson a piece of candy because it’d been a good thirty minutes since his injury and he was still crying a lot and I didn’t know how we’d get home with him being so sad. I didn’t want to just put him in his carseat while crying :(So I sat in the front seat with him and gave him a candy and asked him if he wanted to go home and see daddy and get elephant and binky and he said quietly, “Yeah.”So he was happy about the candy but I could tell he was hurting. I just wanted to get home, give him some pain medicine (tylenol) and cuddle him on the couch.I sat in the front seat after everyone was buckled and cried and cried. I called Allan because I was shaking so bad and traumatized and needed to have an adult calm me down.I eventually got home and did just what I’d planned. Allan held Ember (who was starving, poor girl) while I gave Payson some medicine and cuddled him more on the couch. Then Allan cuddled Payson while I nursed Ember and sat next to them. I kept Payson up for two hours later than his usual bedtime so I could keep watching him. And then I was still so worried I checked on him four times that night.
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Seriously in the top three worst moments of my entire life. That face. My heart aches and aches remembering it all.
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The next day Payson would occasionally touch his cheek gently and tell me, “That boy and Sierra hit mine face.” He’d also rub his cheek gently with his elephant’s nose.
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I’m so thankful he’s ok. That little boy was pushing Sierra as fast as he possibly could (I’m so mad about that, he gave her two really hard pushes right before it happened) and Payson practically did a flip he was hit so hard. My stomach hurts really bad typing this.
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And after that I can hardly think of what to say about the rest of the pictures. It took me a full day to recover from that. I basically held Payson the entire next day and have held him as much as possible since. Being hit that hard right in the face could’ve been so much worse. I am actually going to go do the dishes for a minute and come back and type in a while…Whew… I mopped my entire tile floor (we have LOTS of tile) and have calmed down.I took these pictures of Allan talking to Ember in her exersaucer thing. She really, really loves her daddy.
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We’ve all been sick, sick, sick for so long now. We’re on the mend, I think. Yesterday it started raining and I desperately wanted to take the girls outside to play but being still a bit sick I said we could only go out for five minutes or so.
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Just long enough to smell that fresh air and feel the rain on our faces and escape that house.
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I snapped a picture of Brooklyn’s loose tooth while we were out there.
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I really love these girls. I’ve been remembering life when it was just the two of them and how much I miss that. I realized that the reason it hurts so bad to remember and realize it’s over forever is because I will never again see my toddler Brooklyn or my toddler Sierra or them as babies. It’s so sad that it all goes by. I love the ages they’re at now, I really do, but I would love to have all those years back, too! I don’t want to ever not be a mom with little kids in the home. As absolutely nuts and overwhelming as it is, I don’t want to ever let it go!
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Oh the cuddling this week. A bunch of sickies we are, snuggled up on couches and chairs together.
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Blankets and pillows and lovies scattered everywhere as each kid brings something out to hold close to their sick little selves.
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Ember loves Allan. Loves.
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Good thing I took that picture of Brooklyn’s loose tooth because today…
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We’ve Been Having Fun

Life is pretty good right now. Lots of things are going right. We’ve all been sick for about three weeks (Allan and I think we’ve all had the flu) but we’re handling it well and pushing on through and having fun anyway.

I’d like some sleep, but even being tired I’m going to soak up the absolute craziness that is having four little kids. Life will never be so chaotic and crazy fun as it is right now. I am going to miss it so much!

I mean, I change at least 10 diapers a day, I make meals constantly, the dishes are literally never ending, even for an hour (and our dishwasher is broken so it’s all by hand, baby!) I’ve coughed enough the last month to last a lifetime, my back is killing me from carrying around a baby and toddler so much and the laundry breeds at night, but… it’s SO GREAT. I have so many people to love on every single day. 5 of them! Right here in my house. Smiles and laughter and cuddling and their little voices. I love it!

I told the girls to hold hands and hold up their chalk for a picture and got this:
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Allan stayed home from work. He was on a conference call meeting in the front room so to keep the noise level down I took the older girls outside while the little two slept and we did our school in the yard.
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We’re reading The Wizard of Oz (yet again) and I thought it’d be fun to dress up and act out the story.
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It was a blast. And things got crazy.
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Catch Up Blogging

My family is still sick.

I’m not so much liking February and its germy ways.

I’m making a blurb book right now. It’s fun but takes a lot of time.
I’m leaving a couple blank, white pages in the front of the book so that my family can write little notes on them. I’m looking forward to seeing all their handwriting in our family’s “journal.” 🙂

You might hate me right now but I’m putting all the pictures I didn’t blog from the last two weeks into this post. It’s going to be too much. Much too much.

When Payson first got sick he ended up sleeping in until almost 1pm that day! He is usually up the earliest so I was shocked. I kept checking on him. When I opened his door I found him sleeping on the floor. He must have gotten up and played and then fell back to sleep!
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Yeah, he has ripped his paper blinds several times. But we just don’t feel like spending a bunch of money on real blinds yet!
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Ember had been napping, too. I heard her waking up.
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She’s always in a really good mood in the mornings. She’s my little morning girl.
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On a different day I got Ember dressed and her shirt kept pulling up all day. I guess she’s outgrown these size 18 months pajamas 😛
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These days there is lots of my older girls holding Ember and lots of Ember grabbing at their faces.
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Family pictures after dark. We were having a blast playing outside while Payson had already gone to bed for the night.
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I finally bought a camera remote so that we don’t have to run back and forth to the camera. Sierra got to try it out.
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Then I took some without the flash.
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Happy Baby.
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I don’t know if it’s possible for a child to be loved any more than Ember is. Every person in this house adores her.
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I really love my husband. 8 1/2 years together and it’s better than ever. Which feels so good to say!
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Some of the other pictures from the night we had a fire.
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It was one of my favorite family nights we’ve EVER had.
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This picture is so random but I just love it. Payson had gone into the house to get his sippy cup and he’s got his elephant and binky, which he’s never without. It’s just so cute!! I love that boy.
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The two little kids were excited!
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When Allan first started the fire Brooklyn and Payson were blowing it.
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I can’t remember what Payson was telling me but it was something about the fire.
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He was blowing it again.
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After the first few minutes I picked Ember up and held her the rest of the time. Actually, I ended up breastfeeding her most of the time.
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There’s really nothing better for me than spending time outside with my family 🙂
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We were looking at the moon, which was an awesome crescent that night.
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Allan brought out the hotdogs!
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Payson was so excited. At one point he burst out, “I SO HAPPY!!!” And me and Allan looked at each other with “awww, what an adorable moment” expressions and sappy grins on our faces.
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All three of them did a really good job cooking their hotdogs.
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It got dark. Allan cooked my hotdog for me. He always takes such good care of me while I nurse Ember 🙂
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Not that I was nursing Ember while I snapped these. He took her for a minute so I could capture just a couple more pictures!
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Sierra came out with some funny morning hair. I’m growing her bangs out again so they’re always clipped or twisted up and she looks funny when we take them down.Photobucket

She was the only one awake that morning so we went outside to look at the gorgeous morning light out there. The desert was glowing.
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Some point and shoot shots from a lunch at Costco.
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It was this pizza stop that gave me that horrible gallbladder attack.
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But it sure was good! Especially because the girls got a churro after!
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So Ember was having tummy time and Payson ran to get his own blanket. He brought it in and told me he wanted to have “Payson tummy time” so I helped him lay out his blanket. Oh boy was he happy about that!
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Brooklyn thought it was awesome, too. At first she sat on his blanket with him.
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But then she ran for her blanket. And Sierra saw what was going on and went for hers.
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So my four little kids had their tummy time.
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Which turned into coloring book time.
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Which later turned into school time. (but I didn’t take pictures then)
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I have four kids. At 27. Never imagined it happening this way!
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Payson was so flipping cute. He asked me to find him an elephant in his coloring book and he was so excited when I did. Him and elephants, so funny.
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This was in the afternoon. The weather has been nice and Brooklyn asked to go outside. When I said of course they could she lit up and said, “It’ll be like recess!”
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Ember waking up from a nap.
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Ember loves her bumbo. I think these things are majorly overpriced but with how much my kids have loved them, I guess they’re worth it.Photobucket

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I love it when she goes for toys with her mouth instead of her hands. It’s so funny.
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Have I mentioned she is a very happy baby?
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She was reaching for the camera. She grabs it whenever I’m holding her and taking pictures of something else.
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I don’t remember why I took these, probably just because I think my son is so darn cute.
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I was nursing Ember one day when Sierra asked me to take a picture of her lego creation. She was awfully proud of it. She was beaming when I finished feeding Ember and got my camera out.
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Which then meant Brooklyn asking me to take a picture of her creations, too.
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Ember laying on my closet floor while I talked to Allan who was organizing something in there. lol
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I’ve been giving Payson haircuts since he was 2 months old. Allan had commented recently that he wanted to give his son a haircut so I let Payson’s hair get nice and long (which when I say long is probably short to some of you) and then Allan got to work.Photobucket

But first he got a picture taken with his diapered, chunky, baby sister.
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Allan gave him a completely different haircut than I do and I liked it. Much more tapering and “boy” cut than my typical faux hawk look.
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Payson got a bath and Ember got picked up out of her bouncy chair.
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Payson was silly.
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I took these pictures to send to my sister, Jeena, because she bought Ember this cute little outfit.
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Oh those feet.
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Ember looks so pretty in blue that I went out and bought her new light blue pajamas.
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I can’t remember what day this was. Probably last Saturday. We were all hanging out outside, as usual on the weekends.
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Ember LOVES being outside. She definitely fits into this family!
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Mary got her this pink elephant which is so cute because now both my two youngest have toy elephants to love. Payson makes a big deal out of her toy elephant every time she’s playing with it. Though he does try to steal it.
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Uh oh, stolen elephant… then I traded him for his own elephant.
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Sierra decided to pretend she was pregnant. She is constantly talking about her future kids (she wants 10) and how she’s going to be a good mommy. And I fully believe her. She is going to be the best mommy ever.
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Ember’s favorite thing to do in the bumbo is play with her feet. The bumbo puts them within easy reach and she tries to get them into her mouth the whole time.
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As with everything, one of my kids does something and they all end up doing it 🙂
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Then Sierra decided they should use the balls to be camels.
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Allan took some pictures of me with the kids.
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Then we had a BBQ. I love BBQ. I like the food but even more I love watching the cook 😉
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Allan soothing Ember while talking to his sister, Laura.
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Baby in bouncy chair. I love watching her play with her toys.
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I took a couple pictures of the girls doing their spelling work.
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Sierra practiced alphabetizing letters.
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While Brooklyn held Ember.
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I was surprised by how quickly Sierra did it. It was the struggle of all struggles to get Brooklyn to attempt alphabetizing when she was 6.
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Since Brooklyn’s used All About Spelling Level One already we didn’t have a check off chart for Sierra. She was so excited when I made her one in photoshop.
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Brooklyn practiced alphabetizing words and compared how much easier it was finding something in a book that was alphabetized than one that wasn’t.
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Today Homeschooling Looked Like This

It was a beautiful school day.

The kids brought their blankets into the front room to sit on while working. After some lessons by me they decided to work in their workbooks.
We don’t use workbooks anymore, they’re more like fun coloring books for the kids now.

I don’t have time to think about blogging today. I really don’t. I’m procrastinating dinner by sitting down right now while the kids play in Brooklyn’s room. But I also don’t want to blog when Allan’s home so I’m squeezing it in!

I have so much to say and so much to do that I feel like my head is going to explode!
I handle it by simply telling myself to keep juggling.

My life is about balance. Every single day I accomplish so much while dropping at least five other things. The next day I’ll make sure to get those five things done and the accomplishments of the day before will be dropped. Balance.

Cleaning days, schooling days, baking days, fun days… every day can’t possibly be an EVERY day, a full on success day, but every day CAN be enough of a day. And take all the days and put them together and it’s a successful week and a successful month and that’s all that matters!

Drugged, Happy, Saying Goodbye

I have so many pictures and no time so tonight I just grabbed the most recent picture on my harddrive. Today at Costco Ember fell asleep in the sling.

I’m drugged right now and feeling like I’m going to pass out. Face plant into the keyboard wouldn’t be nice.
Drugged? Huh?

At Costco I had pizza with the kids. Pizza is pretty darn fattening. Fat is not a happy thing for my gallbladder.

Yep, gallbladder attack. Holy crapola does that HURT like a mother. So much worse than anything else I’ve experienced. Like, I just want to DIE it hurts. And guess how long this one lasted! Almost TWO hours! *cry*

I don’t know why I bothered to take Vicodin (30 minutes into the attack) (actually the generic replacement, starts with hydro or something, I don’t know) since it doesn’t even TOUCH the pain! Seriously doesn’t even TOUCH it!! How awful is that? I think I’ll flush the rest of the pills. Worthless things. Oh except they kick in three hours later and make me feel drowsy. haha

But guess what! I’m going to lose ten pounds this month because I’m back on no fat and I dropped weight like crazy when I did no fat a couple months ago. Yay for skinny! Sad for goodbye yummy food, but oh well.

Ok, I’m sorry I sound like an idiot, but I did mention the going to pass out thing, right?

Tonight as I was crawling into bed with Allan I remembered I should brush my teeth and then get some water. I walked into the kitchen and heard someone crying.
It was Sierra. I went into her room and said, “What’s wrong?” And she says, “I just want to stay up longer.”

It was 10pm.

I was pretty upset because Sierra is the sleepiest, crankiest during the day because the child wakes up at the crack of dawn. So I told her to follow me. We walked through the dark house, past her siblings’ closed doors to my bedroom. I said, “look.” and pointed to Allan asleep in bed and Ember asleep in the swing. “It’s bedtime and bedtime means sleeping. And even if you wanted to stay up, you’d be sitting in a dark living room alone.”

Payson was whining at me for something yesterday. “Mommmy, mommmy, mommy, mooooooooommmy!”
I said jokingly, “Um, I changed my name. I’m not mommy anymore. My name is Ariana. I will not answer to mommy, just Ariana.”
And Payson said, “You i-ee-on-na-na-na-na?”

Allan and I cracked up laughing!! Ariananana. Lol!
Earlier that day (or maybe Saturday) Allan gave the kids rootbeer and Payson said, “It’s so dark!” and I said, yeah it is, it’s called rootbeer. And he said, “roobiter.”
LOVE THAT KID.

And I don’t want to tell you guys this next part. It’s very sad and I feel like a big fat jerk for it.
I’m going to have to delete some of you.

I know! Freaking rude of me!

But guess what I didn’t know about. There is a 100 reader limit for private blogs! STUPID, don’t you think?! I do!

And I had 300 requests to be added. So at least 200 people can’t view this thing. 200 NICE people! 🙁

The reason some of you I already added have to go is because I still have some family members to add. So if you suddenly can’t get in anymore I’m REALLY sorry but family comes first.

But there is a tiny bit of good news. I’m keeping my public My Sweet Chaos up and am going to update it occasionally with pictures that don’t show my kids’ faces.

Like this:

Because I really love you guys. You are great people. And I’m not too sad about this whole private blog thing because I got a chance to “meet” you guys on your sites and I had a great time visiting and know I will keep visiting in the future and having that connection feels really nice 🙂