That Was a Crappy Day

Ember had a pediatrician appointment today. She also had her second PKU test.

She’s gaining enough weight and looks great so the doctor doesn’t need to see her again until she’s a month old.
That was a huge relief to me with her first week being so filled with nursing problems.
She is finally latching on well during the day. She’s a lazy, sleepy nurser so that still makes it difficult because she nurses ALL DAY but at least she’s getting what she needs.

Besides that everything else about life feels like it’s spiralling out of control for me. I can’t keep up with anything. I’m so tired all I think about is sleep. My body still hurts. It’s getting better, I suppose, but I still have pain in many places.

My kids are driving me crazy. Four kids at young ages is too many for me! Four kids with all at home is too many for me! I wish I’d put Brooklyn in public school this year just so I could have a break! Having a newborn and taking care of three other demanding children (well, two are demanding) is way way way too much for me to handle.

This morning before the appointments Payson watched Ember take a five minute nap.

So glad to have one more to do crossed off the list. No more appointments for her until the end of the month! Woohoo!

Miss Ember didn’t like her foot being pricked. She also doesn’t like being awake and not attached to mommy’s boob. Or asleep and not in mommy’s arms. Definitely wants mommy. All day.

7 thoughts on “That Was a Crappy Day

  • You're exhausted, hormonal, have a newborn attached to you most of the day and 3 other children who want mommy's attention. It's no wonder you're feeling overwhelmed!! Just keep reminding yourself that this crazy phase will pass and things will get better!

    Ember will learn to nurse more efficiently and get on a better schedule. With her better schedule, you will be able to get more rest. Your hormones will begin evening out, and that, combined with the extra rest, will help you begin feeling more like your usual self. You and the kids will find a new rhythm with little Ember in your home…and a new routine will eventually emerge. Things will continue getting better and a little easier! There is light at the end of the tunnel!

    In the meantime, try not to be too hard on yourself. Think about the advice you would give a close friend in the same situation…then give it lovingly to yourself! You all need time to adjust, and you need time to recover! It is obvious from reading your blog that you are completely devoted to your children. Their days are filled with love and learning and fun…and lots of attention! I am certain they are way ahead of the curve in terms of their education, and they will be completely fine having some time off from their normal school routine.

    It's wonderful that you're finding time to blog about these days. Before you know it, you'll be looking back at these entries surprised by how far you've all come!

    Best wishes to you!

  • I have NO idea how you are doing it all! I'm pretty much losing my mind on a daily basis and I only have 3 little ones!! Yet, somehow you still look absolutely BEAUTIFUL! Your hair is fixed and pretty, you have make up on, and clothes other than pajamas!! How are you managing that?! My “youngest” baby is almost 3 and I still look like a frazzled mom of a newborn! lol!! 😉

  • Ember sounds just like my Sofi when she was a newborn and well basically until she learned to sit up on her own (sorry!). She wanted to be held and nursed all day long. I spent A LOT of time on the computer those 6 months b/c it was the only thing I could do well with a baby in my arms!

    Is there someone from your church or a friend that can come and help you out for a little bit each day? My church family was a huge help after my 3rd baby.

  • The school year just started, it's not too late to put your oldest in school for the year. U have to think about you & your sanity because you sound really stressed & overwhelmed In your postings.

  • From one mom who has homeschooled for several years: I stuck my older two in school this year because I needed the break. It was a hard decision, but I'm starting to get over the guilt and really be glad I did it. I don't have a newborn, but I had enough other stuff going on. My kids will be homeschooled again, I have no doubt, but for now, this is better then crazy Mama. And the person above me is right, it's not too late to enroll. And you don't have to commit to the whole year either. My oldest went to school 3 yrs. ago for just half the year.

  • I remember telling Eric that I wanted to put Natalie in school after Leah was born. It was just too much. He convinced me that it would be harder because I'd have to schedule drop off and pick up around naps/feedings, and he was right. So instead, I just laid off school work for awhile and caught up over the summer. My kids watched a heckuva lot of tv those first few weeks/months. I went into survival mode. There's nothing wrong with feeling overwhelmed. 4 kids 7 and under at home all day is HARD WORK. Don't feel bad about “taking off” from some stuff for awhile. Consider it your 6 week maternity leave. 🙂

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