Payson wanted to be in the belly shots this time.
Things are going pretty well. I’m a lot more achy and feel a lot heavier. I have many Braxton Hicks contractions every day. Which is all normal for me at this phase of pregnancy.
Baby girl is still a really gentle baby. She moves around and does her stretching but it’s all so mellow. I’m getting more ansy to meet her and get to know her. To see if she’s as gentle and mellow once outside as she is now.
I’ve had people ask me if I’m worried or nervous about having a fourth child.
I’m really not, actually. Not even a little bit.
I think I’m at a point in life where everything in life is hard so the idea of it getting harder doesn’t really compute. lol
If this baby has colic like Payson had things will be really difficult for 3-6 months. I’ll not get much sleep and I’ll be overwhelmed and stressed out.
But I’ll get through it.
And I think I’ll probably even handle it better than I did with Payson because I’ve experienced it before. Part of what made taking care of Payson so difficult in those newborn never-sleep-at-all days was the worry and confusion. I had no idea what was wrong with him and was frustrated by doctors refusing to help in any way.
When I figured out he has allergies and made the changes to his diet and he was suddenly more normal, a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders and even now, it is hard dealing with two major allergies (gluten and dairy for those new readers) but at least I know that if he gets diarrhea or is super cranky one day (like, cry-all-day cranky) it’s because he got ahold of his sisters’ food or there was some random ingredient in something I gave him that I missed when reading the label. Because I always read the label carefully but gluten can be tricksy and hide in all kinds of fun places! There have been a million things I’ve learned during the past year about gluten and where it is and what it can be called.
Like modified food starch = diarrhea for Payson. Stuff like that. It’s lots of fun!
Ok not really and I didn’t mean to get so off topic.
So yeah, I’m not nervous but I’m not expecting some easy transition either. I’m just ready for it. I’m aware of the possibility of added stress and work and sleep deprivation and I’m ok with it 🙂